All the vial times you said
I was better I was best,
Has left me falling from a cliff
And wrapped me up and made me stiff.
Like poison running through my veins
Your words profane and give away
The happiness inside of me that makes me free,
So let me be.
If only you could find a time
To love yourself without the crime
Of speaking filthy gibberish,
It makes me sick.
I’m vomiting now as we speak
And I am weak from all you leak;
I wish for sleep,
So let me be.
I try to run away from you
You still pursue without a clue,
And if I stop I will explode
From all the bragging words you sowed
Into my mind like tar that kills;
You must be still,
Now let me be!
Monday, June 20, 2011
Vial Times
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Saturday, September 25, 2010
Kite Dreams
Shimmers in the shining sun,
The fun
Of pleasure flying oh so hi
Just like a bird she flaps her wings,
And sings
Undaunted in the evening sky
The freedom is so fresh and blue
The wind speeds through
Her colors sore
She weaves her tangled elegance
Her rhythmic dance
Yearning, ever wanting more
But wind gets tired and has to go
She stops her show
And thinks of when she’ll dance again
Still now her dreams fill up the sky
She’ll fly so high
Into the cloud that has no end
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Heaven's Just Around the Corner
I'm tired.
I want to be better.
Better at what?
At being me.
Why does there have to be a better you?
When did you find out you were broken?
I might have always been broken.
Maybe that is the way you are supposed to be.
What if it is?
Why do I feel so hurt sometimes, so incomplete?
Why do I feel like everyone is looking at me funny?
Maybe you're crazy.
Or maybe everyone else is.
When was the last time you cried?
Do you ever tell yourself "I love you"?
What if I don't?
Do you ever feel like your heart weighs a million pounds?
Like it is sinking in your chest.
Why do you feel that way?
I don't know, but it hurts,
More then a cut,
Or a bruise,
Or even a broken bone.
It's like I missed out on something in life,
And I will never get to do that one thing again.
What should I do with those feelings?
Push them deep inside?
What if they explode?
I don't know!
But I think that everybody feels like that sometimes.
You just have to learn to live with being imperfect.
Know that life is hell on earth sometimes,
But that heaven is just right around the corner.
Every person walking around you has the same kinds of thoughts,
and feels the same kinds of things.
If you could hear them you would know you weren't alone.
Everyone else is human too.
September 25th, 2008
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Heaven Sealed
Each glow a different shade of bright
All mixed with beauty in shade of night
He looks upon us each blessed light
As One who knows and loves us
We walk each day with different pace
No pair of eyes on the same pairs face
But each and every day we race
His Love gives flight he loans us
Each storm we find in life’s slight hold
Gives rise to doubt and need to fold
But every time the days get cold
His Light is there to warm us
Oh the beauty of the field
The lilies that the soils yield
Each one arrayed and heaven sealed
But His mansions he will give us
Each life has beauty, may be unseen
By us, or others it may have been
But the beauty’s there, and so serene
And it is this He always shows us
But the blind must see
And the deaf must hear
And the lame must stand and run
For the Life He gave
Was given to every child
And His Hope is for everyone.
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HAPPY
I was sad in that moment.
Trapped inside this darkness.
Reeks of paranoia.
I’m depressed.
I’m failing all my treasures,
That are true and golden.
I’ve confessed.
Trying hard to breathe, but can’t.
Could explode if luck relents.
Holding down this fear inside my chest.
Why can’t I do the things I love,
Without the sorrow and the pain?
Why can’t I be a hero now,
Unless I throw my self into the train?
I’ll fall before I get there,
This place I go that only light can see.
When all I need to get me through this day,
Is to be a little bit of HAPPY.
I’m feeling sick,
and ever so cold.
I want to shoot,
Or maybe explode.
Crazy thought,
but who’s to tell.
I’ll give my life,
My dreams I’ll sell.
For one small drink,
And the feelings real,
Of HAPPY things
I used to feel.
I tried but failed.
I cried
and wailed.
I sank,
And drown,
And hit the ground.
I dreamt,
I prayed,
I felt afraid.
I hoped
To be,
But never saw
My HAPPY.
September 25th, 2008
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From Old Nauvoo the Beautiful
The saints came to this wet cold place
And saw the hope in Joseph’s face
And new that they could build their faith
From old Nauvoo the beautiful
Their hands did bleed and brows did sweat
And yet they sang without a fret
Their memories I will not forget
From old Nauvoo the beautiful
And from their tithe and sweat stood tall
A house that did exceed them all
Just for the Lord; their voices call
From old Nauvoo the beautiful
From tin smith to the bakers store
I walk and see what came before
The strength they gave forever more
From old Nauvoo the beautiful
Two brothers I now look upon
A tear I shed, their sacrifice done
They gave their lives for Father and Son
From old Nauvoo the beautiful
I sit at peace within these walls
Where saints the same would walk the halls
A time far past I hear their calls
From old Nauvoo the beautiful
And as I think what I could be
These stories truly help me see
And I gain a site of the future me
From old Nauvoo the beautiful
June 1st, 2010
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Friday, September 24, 2010
Flying
The rain pores down my window
It’s beat matches the rhythm of my heart.
I wonder if the wind ever called my name,
Would I follow?
I walk around so fast trying to find something
But do I ever just sit and get lost in the moment?
I have given so much time to worrying
And shame and heart ache
Over the things that I have done.
How much heartache is there in the world?
How many tears have been cried?
Enough probably to water an ocean of daisies,
Or at least a garden of hopes and dreams.
How many wishes are thrown away everyday
Because someone believes that they can’t?
What if they could?
And what if they could see that they could,
Would they still give up?
Are the great people of the world great
Because they have hope?
I think they are.
Hope can do a lot for a person.
Without hope you can drown in your fears.
They can overcome you and sweep you away.
Sometimes you have these great moments in life
Where you feel like you can see what life is all about.
I wish that I could capture those moments in a jar
And every time I feel lost I would grab one
And eat it right up and everything would be okay.
I used to dream of flying
I don’t any more
I wonder why those dreams stopped?
I wish they would come back again
They used to make me so happy.
March 22nd, 2006
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